I circle the tables and look for my name, again.
Before the conference, people prayed for attendees and typed each conference goer's name on a slip of paper.
Apparently, my name became lost or tossed or even worse, forgotten.
And my missing name played on my insecurities, more than a little.
I wondered if God forgot about me too. Many pressing needs fill His time. One girl, at one conference must rank near the bottom of His massive to-do list.
Such a trivial, little prayer.
Let my name be there. Let me know you You see me.
One more trip around the tables, and then, I glance down at the last sheet of paper, and my eyes are drawn to this.
Counting blessings with Ann V. today.
103. Our God who cares about every facet of our lives.
104. A college kid named Trey and jumper cables.
105. Her and her, my new Asheville writer friends.
106. A bubbly and brave girl sharing her story and her life.
107. Inspiration and blue file folders.
108. A NC girl turned real-life friend.
109. A husband who supports dreams.
110. Kids who give squeeze-me-until-it-hurts hugs.
111. Interest from publishers.
112. The state of Texas. I guess it can't be that bad if people like her and her and her spring up from the Lone Star State.
113. A flower patch farmgirl.
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Be sure to click back tomorrow. I'm listing my ten favorite tidbits from She Speaks. Can't wait to share.
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41 comments:
I think we all wonder from time to time if He really, truly sees us. Of course He sees, He's God, and in that seeing is the most intimate knowledge possible. I've felt forgotten a lot lately. Thank you for this reminder that He really does see and not only that, He cares enough to let us know He does.
glad you're there...
and you are NOT forgotten. ever.
Hi Amy - it doesn't take much for us to get insecure but its so awesome when God so clearly shows us how wrong our thinking was. I hope you had a great time, learning, absorbing and blessing and being blessed at your conference.
God bless
Tracy
I love how God orchestrates even the tiniest details - like where you found your name. He does see us, how amazing! Great list, Amy. Many blessings!
I'm just so happy when I see your name pop up on my blogroll and I have something new to read from you. Looking forward to hearing about the conference--wish I could have been there to meet you!
love. not sure when i will stop feeling sad that i was NOT at the conference....
Can I tell you, even though I heard this story in person, the way you have written it brings tears to my eyes.
I just can't wait to hear about this conference. Just reading your list whets my appetite for stories!! #111 -- AMY!
OH AMY! What a lovely post that no doubt unveils the hearts of most of us girls. I choked back forming tears as I read "El Roi - The Who Sees Me" and isn't that all we really want... to be seen, to be heard, to be loved. Beautiful post, loved your list too. Blessings!
God care deeply and perhaps has a little sense of humor, too. I was reading and saying, . . . "Please, God, let her name be there."
Fondly,
Glenda
love this. how amazing He is.
Nice to meet you! Thank you for leaving a comment on my site! Powerful post - similar to how I feel when I walk into a room full of people I don't know! Envy those women who are laid back and secure...glad to read that I'm not alone in my feelings. Really enjoyed your list.
Beautiful post! Thanks for stopping by and leaving such a nice comment. God bless!
just yesterday our pastor spoke on Genesis 16, and one of his points was, 'the God of the universe knows your name.'
in a world that sometimes seems made to push our insecurity buttons, how blessed we are to have such a personal, intimate God.
this is beautiful thank you for writing it. {and thanks for your commenting on my blog and introducing yourself!}
i love that even though God is so big and powerful, He still gives us surprises in the little things. kind of a cool God, huh?
and i also love that we are seen (sometimes it's what we want, sometimes not....) with love from Him. could easily be so many other emotions instead. so many that we deserve.
p.s.- just so you know, my first instinct was to comment about how could God NOT see you, what w/you being so tall and all?? but i resisted my cheesy joke. well not really, since i brought it back around in a p.s. ha!! :) love you!
Yay! Thankful that your time was blessed and fruitful and all along, I knew it would be. God is doing good things through you, Amy! I'm praising Him for your experience and for His goodness! Can't wait to see what He is going to do with it!
Natalie at Mommy on Fire
http://www.mommyonfire.com
I do love this post. It speaks to my own insecurity when all that really matters is that I follow God's call. Looking forward to more.
Thank you!
It is so powerful to think that God cares for something as small as our littlest concern.
God loves each of us as if there were only one of us. (St. Augustine)
powerful.
Girl! I'm so glad I'm reading this right before bed. I can't tell you how thankful I am that you were sitting right there by the door on Friday. :) Right away, I liked you big-time. So, so happy to have met you. Even if you did ignore most of my texts. ;) (Is it possible that you're a worse phone-checker than I am????) Ha!! Oh wait, one more thing (you'll learn that I get a little long-winded) I LOVE your number 105s, too!
Amy...you crack me up, you make me cry and you make me think about how my family can serve. And not always in that order. So glad to have met you in real life this weekend. A true kindred spirit. I'm praying about your book proposals that are out there right now. Families need to hear what you have to say and put it into practice. I trust, with you, that it will happen in the right time because He is good and so is His time. Love ya my friend.
Such a lesson for my heart tonight Amy! The God who Sees... what a God moment for you. I look forward to reading your tidbits about She Speaks...so glad you met so many friends and new friends. :)
Amen Amy. Despite what society would dictate about what God cares about, Believers know it is all the specifics: big and small.
Wow, Ann, this is such a wonderful post?! Was that God or what?! Ohh, he knows our heart and speaks to us. That in itself is such a huge gift. I so enjoyed visiting your blog.
Many blessings!
I absolutely love how GOD is The GOD of humor and cares about the details. Answering your prayer in this way...love it!
thank you so much for your comment on my blog. this post of yours is so tender and reflects Him so deeply...and the words you wrote are *just* what i needed to read this evening...that He sees. He really. does. see.
Thanks for reminding me how human we all are - I suspect your insecurities are no different to what most of us feel on a regular basis! Great post and I'm very happy to have found you via the wonderful Soli Deo Gloria site!
I'm so glad God met you there and that I did too! You're as sweet in person as you are in this little place on the web. Can't wait to see what God has in store for your writing journey!
Isn't it annoying how Satan can turn not finding your nametag into an identity crises? I'm glad your Father turned it into an "I see you" teachable lesson...Have a wonderful time at your conference. I'm at my church's conference this week too. Fun, fun!
I am so thankful He cares about the little things. I have felt this way before, and He always finds a way to let me know He does see me. Thankful He let you know He see you, too. Love you.
Hi Amy, I'm so glad to meet you at the conference. I'm looking forward to future critiques my friend. It's going to be a God ride. I'm holding on for sure.
I also have known the insecurity of feeling forgotten or overlooked. How wonderful we serve El Roi, the God who sees us and cares. Your post encouraged me today.
We need funny little things in order to do big things. Glad you got to go to the conference and enjoy the fellowship.
Amy! It was so nice to meet you in person! You are beautiful on the inside and out sister, can't wait to see you again next year :) Love!!!!
Love the end of this story! God does care, but though I hate to admit it, sometimes I wonder if I'm worthy for Him to notice.
Oh, thrill! That's what I get when I think of finding a treasure like this among so many others. But then, you are His treasure, Amy. Can't wait to hear the skinny!
What a lovely reminder that He sees us. Thanks for sharing this. So glad you had a great time.
I try not to read into things too much, but I can't help being grateful for encouragement like this. In these moments, whether God arranged it or not, I imagine him saying, "Sam, Sam, Sam, when will you remember that I love you?"
But I'm still glad for the visible reminders.
It's so easy to feel insignificant. I totally understand. But right there you were. A name and sign. What more could God give us than that! Hope you had a great time.
I love that name "El Roi", and that He is the one who sees me, a reminder that I need today and on days when I feel like no one sees. And that He sees you, and all of us, in all of the trivial things, like nametags at conferences and not being forgotten. How beautiful. Glad you enjoyed the conference.
Wow, Amy. The exact same thing happened to me. I perused the tables and didn't find my name. I thought I was looking so closely and carefully, but I missed it. My mind welcomed an immediate panic with the same types of thoughts you mentioned, as I already felt lost in the sea of 650. The enemy wanted me to feel overlooked and forgotten. Isn't it such a blessing to know we serve a God who sees us all. This post really blessed me.
This post made me smile
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