Of them all? Really? Of all of them?
Do you ever question your motives? Question why you say something, why you do something? Question who you are verses how you want to be perceived?
Here's the problem: This is how I want to be seen-
So, so shiny!
Then there is the real me-
Um, perhaps a little less shiny.
I want to be GIVING, but you know what else I want? Oh, take a seat people because this will take a few minutes.
I want a table right next to this desk so I don’t have to look at a random pile of papers scattered all over the floor, and I want a haircut, and I’m talking a real haircut, not a I-happen-to-be-at-a-major-discount-store-and-there-isn’t-a-line-so-I will-get-my-hair-cut hair cut. Oh, and yes, I want those sassy Skylair boots listed on p. 8 of the new Athleta catalogue with “cork infused rubber wedge outsole for comfort, leather insole, and partial side zip for easy on/off” but don’t even think about looking up the price of those babies because I’m pretty sure the cost is equivalent to what it would take to feed a small village for weeks. And the sad part? I could continue on for pages about my wants.
I feel fake.
Caught between who I am (gimme, gimme, gimme), and who I want to be (take it all!) hoping this whole GRACIOUS GIVING adventure isn’t for my glory.
What about you? Sum it up. What do people see when they look at you? How do you want to be perceived? Are you working to become something different?